- Shadow Slave Chapter 1 Nightmare Begins
- Shadow Slave Chapter 2 Slave Caravan
- Shadow Slave Chapter 3 The Strings Of Fate
- Shadow Slave Chapter 4 Mountain King
- Shadow Slave Chapter 5 Broken Chains
- Shadow Slave Chapter 6 Confronting The Tyrant
- Shadow Slave Chapter 7 Three Slaves And A Hero
- Shadow Slave Chapter 8 Nothing At All
- Shadow Slave Chapter 9 Wishful Thinking
- Shadow Slave Chapter 10 First Man Down
- Shadow Slave Chapter 11 Crossroads
- Shadow Slave Chapter 12 The Smell Of Blood
- Shadow Slave Chapter 13 Moment Of Truth
- Shadow Slave Chapter 14 Child Of Shadows
- Shadow Slave Chapter 15 Shadow Slave
- Shadow Slave Chapter 16 Rebirth
- Shadow Slave Chapter 17 Three Simple Words
- Shadow Slave Chapter 18 Absence Of Light
- Shadow Slave Chapter 19 Crossing The Bridge
- Shadow Slave Chapter 20 Outcast Once Again
- Shadow Slave Chapter 21 First Performance
- Shadow Slave Chapter 22 Corpse Corner
- Shadow Slave Chapter 23 Dreams And Nightmares
- Shadow Slave Chapter 24 Moving Up In The World
- Shadow Slave Chapter 25 Wilderness Survival
- Shadow Slave Chapter 26 Changing Star
- Shadow Slave Chapter 27 Measure Of Power
- Shadow Slave Chapter 28 Training Montage
- Shadow Slave Chapter 29 The Last Day On Earth
- Shadow Slave Chapter 30 Starless Void
- Shadow Slave Chapter 31 Low Tide
- Shadow Slave Chapter 32 Making A Choice
- Shadow Slave Chapter 33 Carapace Scavenger
- Shadow Slave Chapter 34 Only Steel Remembers
- Shadow Slave Chapter 35 A Shadow, A Star And An Oracle
- Shadow Slave Chapter 36 Bonfire
- Shadow Slave Chapter 37 Getting To Know Each Other
- Shadow Slave Chapter 38 Questions In The Dark
- Shadow Slave Chapter 39 Journey To The West
- Shadow Slave Chapter 40 Weak Point
- Shadow Slave Chapter 41 Strength In Numbers
- Shadow Slave Chapter 42 Essence Of Combat
- Shadow Slave Chapter 43 Repetition
- Shadow Slave Chapter 44 Cassie’s Dream
- Shadow Slave Chapter 45 Sound Of Laughter
- Shadow Slave Chapter 46 Experience
- Shadow Slave Chapter 47 Echo
- Shadow Slave Chapter 48 The Storm
- Shadow Slave Chapter 49 Natural Element
- Shadow Slave Chapter 50 Death Trap
- Shadow Slave Chapter 51 Carapace Centurion
- Shadow Slave Chapter 52 Clarity
- Shadow Slave Chapter 53 Immortal Flame
- Shadow Slave Chapter 54 Spoils Of War
- Shadow Slave Chapter 55 Lucky People
- Shadow Slave Chapter 56 The Heaviest Thing In The World
- Shadow Slave Chapter 57 Use Of Weapons
- Shadow Slave Chapter 58 Survival Of The Fittest
- Shadow Slave Chapter 59 Shadow Of The Crimson Spire
- Shadow Slave Chapter 60 Bone Ridge
- Shadow Slave Chapter 61 Sea Of Ash
- Shadow Slave Chapter 62 Hide And Seek
- Shadow Slave Chapter 63 Lord Of Ashes
- Shadow Slave Chapter 64 Pursued By Demons
- Shadow Slave Chapter 65 Lights In The Darkness
- Shadow Slave Chapter 66 First Part Of The Plan
- Shadow Slave Chapter 67 Racing Against Time
- Shadow Slave Chapter 68 Beacon Of Death
- Shadow Slave Chapter 69 The Guest
- Shadow Slave Chapter 70 Judgement Of The Blade
- Shadow Slave Chapter 71 One Small Mistake
- Shadow Slave Chapter 72 Demon Slayers
- Shadow Slave Chapter 73 The Circle Of Death
- Shadow Slave Chapter 74 Midnight Shard
- Shadow Slave Chapter 75 Broken Dreams
- Shadow Slave Chapter 76 The Abyss
- Shadow Slave Chapter 77 Enthralled
- Shadow Slave Chapter 78 Bliss
- Shadow Slave Chapter 79 Twist Of Fate
- Shadow Slave Chapter 80 Spirit Of Exploration
- Shadow Slave Chapter 81 Weaver’s Eye
- Shadow Slave Chapter 82 Fear Of The Unknown
- Shadow Slave Chapter 83 Five
- Shadow Slave Chapter 84 Black Seed
- Shadow Slave Chapter 85 One Step At A Time
- Shadow Slave Chapter 86 Final Clue
- Shadow Slave Chapter 87 Plan Of Escape
- Shadow Slave Chapter 88 Boat Builders
- Shadow Slave Chapter 89 Demon’s Bones
- Shadow Slave Chapter 90 Nightfall
- Shadow Slave Chapter 91 Escape
- Shadow Slave Chapter 92 Journey Into The Night
- Shadow Slave Chapter 93 Black Water
- Shadow Slave Chapter 94 Battle In The Depths
- Shadow Slave Chapter 95 Starlight
- Shadow Slave Chapter 96 Exile
- Shadow Slave Chapter 97 Hunter’s Dream
- Shadow Slave Chapter 98 Uninvited Guests
- Shadow Slave Chapter 99 Pursuit
- Shadow Slave Chapter 100 Clear Conscience
- Shadow Slave Chapter 101 Turf War
- Shadow Slave Chapter 102 Stone Saint
- Shadow Slave Chapter 103 Coup De Grace
- Shadow Slave Chapter 104 Soul Arsenal
- Shadow Slave Chapter 105 Living Stone
- Shadow Slave Chapter 106 Creating A Monster
- Shadow Slave Chapter 107 Growing Shadow
- Shadow Slave Chapter 108 Test Dummy
- Shadow Slave Chapter 109 Soulmates
- Shadow Slave Chapter 110 Memento
- Shadow Slave Chapter 111 Lesser Creature
- Shadow Slave Chapter 112 Duel Of The Monsters
- Shadow Slave Chapter 113 Dark Well
- Shadow Slave Chapter 114 Voice Of Darkness
- Shadow Slave Chapter 115 Nightingale
- Shadow Slave Chapter 116 Deal With The Devil
- Shadow Slave Chapter 117 Cruel Injustice
- Shadow Slave Chapter 118 Mirror Image
- Shadow Slave Chapter 119 A Fistful Of Soul Shards
- Shadow Slave Chapter 120 Approaching The Castle
- Shadow Slave Chapter 121 Graveyard Of Hope
- Shadow Slave Chapter 122 Four Months Ago
- Shadow Slave Chapter 123 Helping Hand
- Shadow Slave Chapter 124 Desolation
- Shadow Slave Chapter 125 A Feast In Time Of Plague
- Shadow Slave Chapter 126 Effie
- Shadow Slave Chapter 127 Abandon All Hope
- Shadow Slave Chapter 128 King Of The Hill
- Shadow Slave Chapter 129 Solace
- Shadow Slave Chapter 130 Strength Of A Dozen Men
- Shadow Slave Chapter 131 Traversing The Dark City
- Shadow Slave Chapter 132 End Of The Line
- Shadow Slave Chapter 133 Farewell
- Shadow Slave Chapter 134 Bright Castle
- Shadow Slave Chapter 135 Cohabitation
- Shadow Slave Chapter 136 Reflection
- Shadow Slave Chapter 137 All Eyes On Me
- Shadow Slave Chapter 138 Unexpected Reunion
- Shadow Slave Chapter 139 blame everything on Nephis
- Shadow Slave Chapter 140 True Legacy
- Shadow Slave Chapter 141 Golden Serpent
- Shadow Slave Chapter 142 Behind The Scenes
- Shadow Slave Chapter 143 Gunlaug
- Shadow Slave Chapter 144 Right Of Challenge
- Shadow Slave Chapter 145 Justice
- Shadow Slave Chapter 146 Power
- Shadow Slave Chapter 147 Guild Hall
- Shadow Slave Chapter 148 Last Harvest
- Shadow Slave Chapter 149 Dark Diver
- Shadow Slave Chapter 150 Hunting Party
- Shadow Slave Chapter 151 Head Hunting
- Shadow Slave Chapter 152 There And Back Again
- Shadow Slave Chapter 153 Guiding Star
- Shadow Slave Chapter 154 Light Of The Seven
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 155 First Recruits
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 156 Free Lunch
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 157 Wind Of Change
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 158 Invisible
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 159 Revelation
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 160 The Future
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 161 Rubicon
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 162 Lost From Light
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 163 The Past
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 164 Farewell
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 165 Power
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 166 Light And Shadows
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 167 Unforgivable
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 168 Outside
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 169 Back To The Future
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 170 Star-Crossed
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 171 Tether
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 172 Memory Market
- Shadow Slave Chapter 173 Black Armor
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 174 Shopping Spree
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 175 Reunion
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 176 Coming Clean
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 177 Cloak And Dagger
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 178 Lost Expedition
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 179 New Generation
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 180 Break Point
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 181 Rules Of Hospitality
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 182 Dinner Time
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 183 Learning New Tricks
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 184 Value Of Humility
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 185 Battle Master
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 186 Eureka
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 187 Trial Of Strength
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 188 Of Heaven And Hell
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 189 Sunny’s Brilliant Emporium
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 190 Point Of No Return
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 191 Pursuer
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 192 Lighthouse
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 193 The Catacombs
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 194 Aching Bones
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 195 Rolling Battle
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 196 Divine Lntervention
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 197 Ultimate Test
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 198 Last Stand
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 199 Cliffhanger
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 200 Descent
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 201 Lord of the Dead
- Shadow Slave Chapter 202 Risk and Reward
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 203 Corpse Eater
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 204 Mysterious Key
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 205 Journey to the South
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 206 Triumph
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 207 Beach Episode
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 208 Something Productive
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 209 Fireside Banter
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 210 Shadow of the Past
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 211 Game of Lies
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 212 Knights and Knaves
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 213 Sword Saints
- Shadow Slave; 214 Transient Shadow
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 215 Shapeless
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 216 Tacit Understanding
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 217 Origin
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 218 Shadow Dance
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 219 Relics of the Past
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 220 So You’re a Spider So What?
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 221 Zenith
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 222 Clearing the Nest
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 223 Natural Selection
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 224 Pyre
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 225 On the Shoulders of Giants
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 226 The Fool
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 227 Comparatively Safe
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 228 Crossing the Canyon
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 229 The Passenger
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 230 Precarious Battle
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 231 Stone Giant
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 232 Before The Storm
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 233 Swarm
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 234 Horde
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 235 Flower Boy
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 236 Ex Machina
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 237 Wall of Darkness
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 238 lnto the Storm
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 239 Clash of Titans
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 240 Shadow Slave
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 241 Halfway
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 242 New Toys
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 243 Fangs Of A Dragon
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 244 Death Zone
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 245 Theatre of Giants
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 246 lrrefutable Proof
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 247 The Mist
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 248 Those Who Survived
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 249 Curse of Darkness
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 250 Defiant Oath
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 251 Boundary of the Underworld
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 252 Unseen
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 253 without a Master
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 254 The First Lord
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 255 Dawn Shard
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 256 True Reason
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 257 Nightmare Champion
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 258 Herald of the Crimson Terror
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 259 Bloody Mayhem
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 260 How to be a Hero
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 261 Moon Shard
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 262 Path to Damnation
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 263 The Beginning of the End
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 264 First Things First
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 265 Hateful Shadow
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 266 The Devil You Know
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 267 Let There Be Light
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 268 Clash
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 269 Incarnation Of Death
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 270 Runaway
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 271 Insurmountable
- Shadow Slave Chapter 272 Shadow And Darkness
- Shadow Slave Chapter 273 Chrysalis
- Shadow Slave: Chapter 274 Salvation
- Shadow Slave Chapter 275 Secrets of the Ruined Temple
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 276 Black Door
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 277 Demon of Fate
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 278 Weaver’s Mask
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 279 Guilty Conscience
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 280 One Last Job
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 281 Seven Heroes
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 282 Sacrifice
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 283 Final Piece of the Puzzle
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 284 Nothing Serious
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 285 Kill Order
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 286 Blessings of the Fire
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 287 Lonely Star
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 288 Progress Report
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 289 Start of the Play
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 290 Judgement Day
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 291 Eye of the Storm
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 292 Just Cause
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 293 The Challenge
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 294 Song of Steel
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 295 The Duel
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 296 Creature of Light
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 297 Red Flower
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 298 Fire and Blood
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 299 Twisted Reflection
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 300 Bright Lord’s Slave
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 301 Heirs to the Throne
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 302 Status Quo
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 303 Helpful Shadow
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 304 Hunting for a Big One
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 305 Trail of Blood
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 306 Final Confrontation
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 307 Throne of Light
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 308 Handmaiden
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 309 Where Dreams May Come
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 310 Shadow Demon
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 311 The Last
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 312 lnvisible Chains
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 313 Starlight Shard
- Shadow Slave; Chapter 314 Leaving the Dark City
Somewhat surprised, Sunny struggled to open his eyes. As his vision slowly focused, he saw Neph’s pale face looming above him. Her short silver hair was wet, sticking close to her skin.
She was standing on her knees beside his broken body, caressing his face with her hands. In her eyes, there was a strange expression.
It was as though she was frightened, but resigned to something.
Her pupils were wide and dark.
‘Wh—what?’
Greeting her teeth, Nephis moved her hands to his collapsed chest and pressed them lightly against it, causing a pulse of pain to radiate through Sunny’s body.
Then, a soft, radiant brilliance suddenly ignited beneath the skin of her palms, reflecting in her grey eyes like two dancing white sparks.
Almost immediately, Changing Star’s face contorted in a grimace of excruciating agony, and she let out a terrible, muffled scream.
Her skin became white as a sheet of paper, and as she bit her lower lip, drops of blood soon rolled to her chin.
As the radiance grew in intensity, Nephis shut her eyes tightly, tears streaming down her tortured, bloodless face.
Sunny, on the contrary, felt like he was in heaven. All pain disappeared from his body, replaced by gentle, all-encompassing warmth. He felt as though he was being cleansed by something pure and sacred.
By a white, pristine, purifying flame.
Under the influence of the flame, his dying body began to repair itself. His shattered bones were reassembled from the shards. His torn flesh regenerated and became whole again. His collapsed lungs and damaged heart were brought back to life and rejuvenated, instantly turning strong and healthy.
Suddenly, he could breathe again.
As his chest moved, drawing in a new breath, Nephis flinched away with a harrowing moan. The white radiance beneath her skin dimmed and disappeared, letting the darkness return to its rightful place.
Crawling away a few steps, Changing Star stopped, standing on her knees and hands, and violently vomited. Her whole body was shivering uncontrollably, as though on the verge of a seizure.
As the shivers died down, she slowly lowered herself to the ground and lay there motionlessly, catching the raindrops with her mouth.
Sunny, meanwhile, raised his hands and carefully explored his body.
To his surprise, nothing really hurt. It was as though he was never wounded in the first place, let alone almost died.
With the help of Nephis and her mysterious Aspect Ability, he was completely healed.
It was a miracle.
***
By the time the storm was over, it was already deep into the night. Sunny, Nephis and Cassie huddled together for warmth and slept as though they were dead, too tired to make someone keep watch.
If anything were to happen, the shadow would probably alarm them in advance.
If not, so be it. They were just too exhausted to care.
Luckily, the rest of the night went without incidents.
In the morning, no one was in a hurry to make any plans or suggest leaving the cliffs. They just gathered some meat from the dead carapace centurion and the scavengers, collected the two soul shards and moved to the opposite side of the small island, afraid that the remains would attract some creature’s attention.
As it turned out, they were right. Not long after the group left the place of the battle, a dark spot appeared in the sky. Soon, it became larger and approached the cliffs, landing near the corpse of the centurion in a whirlwind.
Sunny had never seen anything like it. The creature was massive in size, easily weighing twice as much as the carapace monster. Its body was white as a corpse and muscular, like that of a lion. It had two mighty paws in the back and six in the front, protruding messily out of its wide chest. Each ended with long, sharp talons.
The neck of the flying monstrosity was covered in long black feathers, as well as its enormous wings. Its head resembled that of a raven, with large round eyes and a terrifying black beak.
While they hid behind rocks, the creature feasted on the dead centurion, easily breaking its carapace apart with its talons and beak. Then, satisfied, it grabbed a few scavenger carcasses with its paws and rose back into the air, creating a small hurricane with each flap of its black wings.
The creature left the cliffs and flew back the way it came.
It was moving west.
Following the black dot as it disappeared into the distance, Sunny sighed.
“Neph. What do you think that thing is?”
Nephis was also looking at the sky. After a few seconds, she lowered her gaze.
“I have no idea.”
Sunny simply nodded and went about his business. He still had to perform his thousand strikes.
After making a fire, they roasted the centurion’s meat and had a delicious, hefty breakfast. Then, stuffed, the three of them lied down and lazily rested.
After fighting against two scavengers at once, running away and barely surviving the sudden flood, climbing tall cliffs in the middle of a storm and battling an awakened monster — all done in a single day — they deserved some time off.
Plus, Sunny needed to sort himself out. Truth be told, he was feeling a bit strange.
The reason for this was not his traumatic near-death experience, although it had a lot to do with it. The thing was that, after the unexpected epiphany he had while trying to fight against the deathly mind fog, Sunny felt as though he had been changed.
Because the clarity he gained never went away.
It was still here, at the center of his being. He felt as though his very way of thinking and perceiving the world was now completely different. It was stark, streamlined and dauntless.
Sunny felt that he had become calmer. He was now able to think much faster and act without hesitation. Many things that previously seemed obscure and frightening suddenly became predictable, and thus surmountable.
It was as though he had discovered an underlying order to the world that wasn’t there before. That inner understanding gave him an advantage that was hard to explain with words.
In a sense, this change was even more profound than the transformation of his body at the end of the First Nightmare. He felt that he had made a big leap in his combat ability and overall power, even though it wasn’t tied to the number of consumed shadow fragments or unlocked Aspect Abilities.
Looking at the sky, Sunny wondered if this was how Nephis always felt.
‘Probably. Mastery of the body, mastery of the mind. Right?’
He was still far away from being a master. But it felt as though he was on the right track.
***
Some time later, Sunny approached the western edge of the cliffs.
Nephis was sitting there, her feet dangling over the edge. She was looking west, lost in her thoughts.
He sat down beside the silver-haired girl and followed her gaze, trying to guess what she was thinking about.
Just like always, he failed. Changing Star was hard to understand.
Sunny shifted, feeling incredibly embarrassed. Finally, he gathered his courage and said:
“You saved my life twice yesterday.”
Nephis glanced at him and turned away again.
“I did.”
He hesitated, trying to find the correct words. In the end, he couldn’t come up with anything and simply said:
“Thank you.”
This time, she looked at him a bit longer. Her face was calm and indifferent.
“There’s no need to thank me. Without you and your shadow, we would have drowned before reaching the cliffs or been torn apart by a large group of scavengers after stumbling on them in the labyrinth.”
After that uncharacteristically long sentence, she fell silent and added after a while:
“We’re allies.”
Sunny nodded, knowing that she was right. Still, Nephis went above and beyond to keep him alive. Even if he had also done his part, not everyone would have gone to such lengths to return the favor.
However, he didn’t say anything about it. Mostly because he could already imagine her answer.
Staring right at him, she would stay quiet for some time and then say something like “I just wanted to” or “It is what it is” in a flat tone. And then there would be an awkward silence.
With a subtle smile, Sunny looked away.
A minute or two later, he said:
“It’s you Flaw, isn’t it? The pain you feel every time you use your Ability?”
Nephis was silent for a while before answering. Then, she simply said:
“Yes.”
Sunny looked at her. Changing Star’s profile was calm and distant. The wind was playing with her short silver hair.
“What does it feel like?”
She was staring into the distance.
“Like burning alive.”
He sighed, trying to imagine what kind of suffering someone being burned alive would have to endure. As always, the Spell was vile and cruel.
“I’m sorry,” he said quietly after some time.
Nephis shrugged, not turning her head.
“It’s just pain.”
Sunny looked away, trying to hide his expression.
‘Just pain.’
These might have been the saddest words he had ever heard.